Day 5 and 6 are done! It was hard, and I’ll be honest I didn’t really want to study these past couple of days. I was at my limit with my kids, after being up since 4am I still wasn’t able to get a minute to attempt to study until around 7pm and by that time I felt like a zombie. I was so tired I sat down at the computer and just stared at the screen for a minute before remembering what I was supposed to be doing! I had a decision to make, make some coffee and get my brain in gear…or give in to the sirens call of my bed and sleep. So I got up, quietly snuck into the kitchen to make some coffee, took that first glorious sip…and my 9 month old woke back up. I already made the coffee so I wasn’t giving up now! I set my little dude up on the floor with a blanket and some toys and got to work. I realized that as a mom it’s going to be hard if not seemingly impossible to find the time to study and code, but if I want this then I have to make the time! There will be some times when it would be so much easier to just accept my current job and life, to give up, to listen to that little voice that says I don’t have what it takes and I should just give up and stop wasting my time. But I refuse! I am doing this to provide a better life for my family, when I had the opportunity to go to college I didn’t know what I wanted to do so I wasted a lot of time and money, I can’t afford to do that again. If I want to better myself then I have to take control, even if that means a lot more coffee!
I powered through my lessons these past two days so I am now ready to start my first project! I am excited but a little worried because now its more than just watching videos, I will be actually coding a game! I will have to find more than 5 minute intervals to study and code. I think I may need to find some new ways to occupy my kids. I’ve done some coding in the past, but its been simple HTML/CSS pages. This is a whole new arena for me. I can do this!